Boxing is definitely something that is out of my comfort zone. But I think that’s exactly why I decided to do it and still do it now.
The main reason why I started boxing is to get fit. Architecture school is no joke and I knew that taking care of my body should be my first priority. So one day after school, I ended up in front of a small boxing gym and I stood there for a good 5 minutes. Listen. I’m someone who is all about yoga, pottery, meditation and karma, love and peace. I like silence and quietness. So at that moment I was kind of questioning my decision. I don’t even know anything about boxing. It barely makes sense. I swear I’m confusing myself sometimes. But I was already there and knew that if I didn’t at least try, then I would probably regret it.
To be honest, I just don’t like the kind of confrontation where you have to intentionally hurt other people. It is obviously more than self-defense. I still haven’t figure out how to get over it and my brain can’t seem to understand that there’s a consent from both sides. So, technically, it’s fine to hit your opponent. You also need to have a good amount of confidence to believe you can and will defeat someone. Between you and me, some are showing way too much pride and it always gets on my nerves. I can’t stand pretentiousness. This should explain why I never watch boxing fights on TV.
But, what I admire is the discipline that keeps pushing your limits and the intensity. It’s also something you can practice on your own. When I can just focus on what is in front of me, all the other parts of my brain shut down. I get into a flow. Exactly like when I paint, draw or sculpt. It’s also very rewarding to feel your body getting stronger every day. And that is why I prioritize working out over other things. However, I could just go to a fitness gym for that. I am here to learn something, not move just to move. And that’s where things get confusing for me. I still have mixed feelings about this sport. I do love the fitness/discipline part, but I feel uncomfortable with the competitive and brutal aspect of it. Maybe it is about adapting it to my own values. I mean boxing doesn’t have to be only about fighting and pridefulness.
Hopefully, I will be able to find more common grounds between this sport and me and get over my false beliefs about it.